Introduction

This page, originally a booklet written by Professor Gus Baker and colleagues at the UK’s University of Liverpool, is a clear self-help guide to memory problems in people with epilepsy. It explains the difficulties that can be faced and provides simple strategies that may help the individual to overcome them.

Thanks to Professor Gus A Baker, Amy J Hothersall, Jenna E. Mallows, University of Liverpool.

What is memory?

Memory is the ability to recall past experience and knowledge. It is divided into short-term memory (STM) and long-term memory (LTM). Short-term memory deals with information that is to be remembered over a period of a few minutes, and long-term memory deals with anything that is to be remembered for longer than this. Recording the memory in the first place is called encoding. The information is then passed from short-term to long-term memory for storage. Long-term memory is divided
into three types.

  • Procedural memory
    Activities which are carried out almost without thinking, for example, riding a bike.
  • Semantic memory
    Knowledge that has been acquired but we are not sure when, for example, capital cities.
  • Episodic memory
    Personal memories of everyday life.

Memory can also be divided into verbal and visual. Verbal memory is the ability to remember information which is perceived aurally, for example, words and sound. Visual memory is the ability to remember information that is provided visually, for example in terms of pictures and faces. When we want to remember something, the information we need is brought back from long-term memory to short term memory. This is called retrieval.

If we have forgotten something it could be due to problems with:

  • recording the memory in the first place (encoding);
  • the storing of the memory (storage);
  • or recovering the memory from LTM (retrieval).

What causes memory problems?

Everybody will experience some minor lapses in memory. These can occur when we are:

  • under stress;
  • trying to concentrate on a number of things at once;
  • feeling unwell;
  • feeling tired.

Also, as we get older, lapses in memory can become more common. This variation is perfectly normal and nothing to be concerned about. However, memory problems can be much more pronounced and long-term. They can be caused by a number of things, for example:

  • a dementia type illness such as Alzheimer’s disease;
  • an infection of the brain, for example encephalitis;
  • a shortage of oxygen to the brain, as in cerebral palsy;
  • head injury;
  • certain types of stroke;
  • a brain tumour or brain haemorrhage;
  • epilepsy, on its own or with one of the above.

Memory difficulties in people with epilepsy

The presence of memory difficulties in people with epilepsy is well recognised. In fact people with epilepsy seek help for memory problems more often than for any other impairment. Research has shown that a large portion of memory is located in a specific area of the brain known as the temporal lobe.

There are a number of reasons why people with epilepsy may have memory difficulties.

  • Epileptic seizures can affect memory functioning because, in order for memory to work properly, the brain needs continuous self-monitoring. This self-monitoring system can be disrupted during a seizure. Memories prior to a seizure can be lost, as they have not been fully incorporated into our memory system.

    During a seizure our memory may also be affected, because a loss of consciousness can interfere with normal brain processes, disrupting the encoding and storage of information. The confusion that can occur following a seizure can also prevent our memory from working properly.

    Some people with epilepsy can experience unusual electrical activity within the brain between seizures and this can also affect attention and memory functioning.
  • An underlying brain tumour or lesion can disrupt the memory process. Therefore if a tumour or lesion is located in the temporal lobe, which is a part of the brain needed for memory, this may also cause memory problems.
  • Some anti-epileptic medications may interfere with memory functioning as they can affect the speed at which the brain can process information. On the other hand they also reduce seizure frequency and, as we have discussed, frequent seizures can also cause memory impairment.

    If you are worried your medication may be affecting your memory, it is important to speak to your doctor about your concerns. They can investigate this possibility and will discuss possible solutions with you. It is worthwhile noting that the cause of some of our memory problems may be due to another problem, which is resulting in impairment in memory.

    For example:
    • an attention problem – if we do not pay attention to the information we are presented with then this information is not recorded by our memory;

    • a language problem – sometimes in conversation we find it hard to find the word that we are looking for. This can be misinterpreted as forgetting words;

    • a visual/spatial problem – people can have difficulty working out where they are in relation to other places or objects and therefore can experience difficulty in working out how to get somewhere;

    • anxiety and depression – people with an altered emotional state often experience memory difficulties; those who experience anxiety can find their mind is too occupied with worrying thoughts to concentrate on things around them. Those who are low in mood can also feel lethargic and low in motivation, therefore lacking the attention needed to record a memory;

    • sleep disturbances – if we are not getting enough sleep then we can experience difficulty concentrating which again disrupts our attention to information. How are people with memory problems affected?

Memory problems can affect people in different ways

It may be that a person’s memory problems are very general, and will therefore affect most areas of memory functioning. However they can also be very specific and might only affect one aspect of memory functioning, such as remembering what people tell you. Memory problems can cause a range of difficulties, making it difficult to cope with everyday living and relationships. These difficulties can cause a great deal of distress for the person affected. However, while memory problems cannot be cured, it is possible to adapt to having a memory impairment, making it easier to cope and live a relatively normal life.

Neuropsychological memory assessment

In order to get an accurate assessment of your memory function, the doctor may suggest carrying out a neuropsychological assessment. Neuropsychological simply means looking at the processes that the brain carries out, one of which is memory. This assessment aims to get an accurate idea of how well your memory is currently functioning and will be carried out by a psychologist. It will look at all areas of your memory ability. More specifically it will be looking at your ability to remember pictures, stories and numbers. Through looking at these areas, the psychologist will be able to discover where your memory difficulties lie and if there is any difference between your:

  • visual memory (your ability to remember pictures) and;
  • verbal memory (your ability to remember information presented orally).

This information then provides some focus on which memory enhancement strategies are going to be the most helpful to you.

Memory enhancement strategies

It is possible to find ways of adapting to living with memory problems. Various methods can be used to help people with memory problems store and recall memories more effectively.

Possible ways of doing this are:

  • following a set routine;
  • adapting your surroundings;
  • using external memory aids;
  • using ‘mnemonics’;
  • improving general well-being.

Strategies can be combined to help you adapt to living with memory problems. The following section will outline these strategies in more detail. It is likely to take some time to get used to using the various strategies which can help to enhance your memory.

There may be some ‘trial and error’, and it will require effort on your part. However, experience has shown that, once incorporated into your lifestyle, these strategies can be extremely effective and beneficial. It is worth noting here that the key to making these strategies work effectively is organisation and establishing a routine, as this reduces the demands placed on your memory.

Following a set routine

It cannot be stressed enough how important following a routine is to improving your memory. Having a routine means you can get used to what to expect, which helps reduce the demands placed on your memory. A lot of people find it useful to make a note of their regular activities in their diary or on the calendar. Also, always doing things at certain times of the day, for example always taking medication with breakfast can help some people.

Adapting your surroundings

By adapting your surroundings you will have less need to use your memory, and therefore this reduces the difficulties you can experience. This can be achieved in a number of ways:

  • by keeping a note pad by the phone to take messages;
  • using a notice board for important information;
  • having a particular place to keep things, such as keys and glasses, and always putting them in the same place;
  • abelling cupboards to remind you what goes in them.

People around you can help with this by altering how they do things, or how they respond to you as a person with a memory impairment.

Using external memory aids

There is a wide range of external memory aids and the most important thing is to choose something that you feel comfortable with. What suits one person may not necessarily suit another. For example, pictures or diagrams may be more useful for people who find reading difficult.

Possible memory aids are:

  • a diary;
  • a notebook;
  • making lists, for example shopping lists;
  • an alarm clock or a timer;
  • a mobile phone with an alarm;
  • a calendar;
  • a wall chart or wipe clean memo board;
  • a tape recorder or Dictaphone;
  • an electronic organiser;
  • an electronic pager;
  • a pill reminder box for medication;
  • Post-It notes;
  • a photo album or memory book.

Getting used to a new memory aid can be quite demanding and it may take you a little while. However, the more you use a memory aid the easier it will become to incorporate into your everyday life. Eventually it will seem like second nature. It can be easier to use memory aids that you are more familiar with, for example, if you like using modern technology then you may find personal organisers and computer diaries work for you. However, if you are not keen on computers, pen and paper methods such as diaries and calendars may be easier to use.

Mnemonics

A mnemonic is a verbal or visual aid which helps us to remember information, usually in the form of sayings, rhymes or pictures. For example to remember the colours of the rainbow some people use the rhyme: Richard Of York Gave Battle In Vain
Red Orange Yellow Green Blue Indigo Violet.

Some people find visually pairing items can be useful; one such method is known as the peg method. ‘Pegs’ are used to help you to remember a list of items. Each number is given a rhyming visual cue – ‘one - bun, two - shoe, three - tree, four - door etc. Using this method you would visualise the first thing you want to remember and associate it with a bun. Other people try to remember information in the form of a story they have made up. These are only suggestions of methods you could use. Often the best thing is to be imaginative and make up ones that are personally relevant and work for you.

Combining a variety of strategies to enhance memory

People with memory difficulties can often find it helpful to use several aids or strategies, so that if one method fails there will be another one as a back-up. Writing on the calendar and using an alarm to remind you of an appointment is one example. It can take time to establish a memory system but, once it has been set up and is used frequently, it can be very effective.

Improving well-being

Living with memory problems, you may often feel vulnerable and unsure of yourself. Given the practical difficulties of memory problems you may experience some anxiety. Anxiety management and the use of relaxation techniques can therefore be beneficial.

Your GP will be able to give you advice on where you can get information on this. Factors causing a reduction in well-being can include a loss of structure to your daily routine (for example losing your job) or a general loss of independence, status or role. This can be exaggerated if it is accompanied by other factors, such as an inability to drive and a dependence on others.

Improvements in well-being can be achieved in a number of ways, for example through developing new activities or hobbies. It can also be helpful to talk to others experiencing similar problems and to find out if there are any organisations or support groups in the area that may be useful.

Specific memory problems

Some of the most common difficulties people with memory impairments can experience are:

  • remembering to do something;
  • remembering people’s names;
  • remembering where you put something;
  • remembering what people tell you;
  • remembering what you are reading;
  • remembering how to get somewhere.

The following section will outline how these problems can be made easier to cope with and which strategies will work well for particular problems. These are only suggestions to give you an idea and you may think of others that you find more useful.

Remembering to do something

  • Leave things in your front hall before you go out, for example, letters you need to post.
  • Watches or organisers can be programmed to sound an alarm at certain times to remind you to do something.
  • If possible, do things immediately rather than later on.
  • Keep a pen and paper handy at all times.
  • Use diaries, wall charts and calendars

People often forget if they have done a particular task (such as locking the door). A way to improve this type of memory is to say out loud what you are doing at the time you are doing it.

Remembering people’s names

Recording the information

  • Listen carefully.
  • If the name is unusual, ask them to spell it.
  • Think about whether you like the name or not.
  • If you’re introduced to several people, make an excuse to repeat back their names, for example "Let me make sure I’ve got your names right…."
  • Try to use the name as often as possible in your initial conversation, for example "Glad to meet you John". When you say goodbye, repeat the name.
  • Repeat the name after a short interval. And remember, most people enjoy hearing their name being spoken.
  • If it’s a foreign name, alter the way it sounds to make it more meaningful to you.
  • Split a long name into shorter words.
  • Some names may be easy to pair with a visual image, for example, Mr Butcher.
  • Form a link between the person you meet and someone you know with the same name, or a famous personality. Try to find some similarities.
  • Keep rehearsing the names you learn every few hours or days. Try associating the name with a prominent feature on the person’s face.
  • Recalling the name

  • Try not to panic!
  • Think through each letter of the alphabet in turn to see if it triggers your memory for the person’s name.
  • Think of the situation where you first learned the name, and anything about the situation that you may have linked with the name.
  • Say something like "I remember you very well but your name has just slipped my mind for the moment".
  • Shake hands and say your own name; they may instinctively repeat theirs. If all else fails, you can often chat without saying their name.
  • Remembering where you have put something

  • Try to be well organised. Spend a little time each day putting things back that you have put out of place. Set specific places for things.
  • Make a list of things that you lose quite often and make a special habit to put them back in the right place.
  • Stop and think each time you put something away. Concentrate for a few seconds and look at the particular place you put them.
  • Find a connection between the object and the place that you are putting it, for example if you put your keys in a cup, imagine yourself drinking with a large key in your hand rather than a cup. This should help you when you try to remember where you put the key.
  • When you park the car, try to park it near the exit or near a ticket machine, then look at it a few times as you walk away and concentrate on where you left it.
  • Once you have put something away try to think of it, and where you have put it, at intervals afterwards. Try to make the intervals a little longer each time.
  • Remembering what people tell you

  • Write the message down. It is useful to do this in an organised, meaningful way. You could make parts of the message stand out by writing in a different colour or underlining.
  • Try to think about what you are hearing, for example do you agree or disagree with it?
  • When trying to remember numbers, group them together, for example 2-7-4 could be remembered as two hundred and seventy four. Telephone numbers can be remembered in a similar way. Or try to find a meaning to the number. For example 2-7-4 could be somebody’s birthday (27th April) – the 27th of the fourth.
  • In the case of a list of things someone has asked you to do or buy, it can be helpful to try and associate items in the list with each other. This can be achieved by grouping certain items together, depending on a category they belong to or maybe using the first initial of each item to make up a word. So to remember to get bread, eggs, sugar and tea use the word ‘best’. It may also be useful to associate this word with the place that you are going, so you could imagine George Best playing football in the aisles of your local supermarket. More unusual associations are usually more likely to stick in your memory.
  • If you have forgotten a message then try to remember details about it, such as who gave it to you, where you were when you got the message and what you were doing at the time. This may jog your memory.
  • Remembering what you are reading

  • In general, it is useful to try and group the material that you are reading into subheadings and then go over the subheadings each time you read the material.
  • Use a highlighter pen to colour important sentences.
  • Test your recall about the information you have just read and repeat this at certain intervals.
  • Read through the material again and concentrate on the information you have forgotten.
  • The PQRST method (below) can be used to help you remember information that you are reading.
  • Preview
    Skim through the information to get a general idea about what is being said.

    Question
    Decide upon questions you want to be able to answer once you have read the information and write them down.

    Review
    Re-read the information.

    State
    Sum up the most important points.

    Test
    Test yourself by seeing if you can answer the questions that you set for yourself earlier.

    Remembering how to get somewhere

  • Plan your journey and use a clear map or directions. Decide if you are happier with a map or written instructions.
  • Make a note of any landmarks you will be passing on the way.
  • If you get lost don’t panic. Try to go back through your directions and spot where you have gone wrong.
  • Take a telephone number of someone who could help you should you get lost, and remember you can always ask someone in the area for help.
  • Summary

    Be organised

    Keep a fixed routine, with set things at set times of the day.

    Be well organised – have a place for everything and have everything in its proper place. Use labels if necessary.

    General advice

    Get a good night’s sleep and do difficult jobs when you’re feeling fresh and there are not too many distractions.

    Try not to do too many things at once. Do major activities one bit at a time.

    Try to stay calm and avoid stressful situations. If you forget to do something, don’t get too upset about it. Try to keep things in perspective.

    Better ways of remembering

    If you have to remember something, go over it in your mind at regular intervals.

    Try to find meaning in things you have to remember – use mnemonics and make associations.

    If you cannot remember something, try thinking about associations that might jog your memory.

    Hints for Helpers

    This page has been written primarily for someone who has epilepsy and memory problems. If you are close to someone who has epilepsy and memory problems, it may help to improve your understanding of the difficulties they face and how they might handle them. You can help, whether you are a close relative, friend or work colleague, by following these simple guidelines:

    Do

    Try to understand what their difficulties are.

    Be a bit more patient than usual.

    Support them by accepting the ways that they try to cope with their memory difficulties.

    Adapt your way of relating to them.

    Don’t

    x Patronise or do everything for them.

    x Make too many demands or have high expectations that require a great deal of memory recall.

    x Tidy up or put things away if that disrupts their way of coping.

    x Interrupt them when they are talking or concentrating on something.

    Comments

    This info has been very assuring, I have both complex migraines and complex partial seizures. I live in an Assisted Living Facility. My memory has progressively worsened and my neurologist attributes it to the seizures. After one huge seizure, I lost 35 yrs of memory but it gradually returned. I find that I cope with this problem much better than the people of whom I associate. I will purchase items to assist - diaries, post it notes, and such and forget that I have them. When I do remember them, I have forgotten where I put them or forget to use the implement. It is GREAT though, in that I can watch tv shows and movies over and over because I do not remember them or only bits and peices as the spots in the show/movie occurs. I get angry not so much with the person but my own inability when others fuss at me that I have told them something 100 times before. It helped to finally get a "label" of epilepsy for my weird symptoms and have a doctor who did not say "I do not know" or it is all in my head - it really is! Is it common for migraines and epilepsy to go together, and with such complex symptoms how can a person tell which is which?? Thanks for listening. God bless you now and forever, AMEN (I pray as such because I never remember to pray for a person again...haha....it is true!)

    hi im a 45 yr old lady who is sure shes going nuts, ive been epileptic since the age of 9 on meds forever or so it seems my memory is becoming far worse than normal over the last 10 months i have been having fits daily since being well maintained for over 20yrs, this has become very frightening as now i loose total consiousness and just collapse on the floor cannot be left on my own as have injured myself recently my meds have been raised as i had minimal levels in my blood so now on 700mg epinutin and 1200 tegretol daily.
    i love to read but now cant even follow a page let alone a book my communication with others is comical to a degree i say things which in my head sounds fine but the people or person im talking to say WHAT in a rather shocked manner and they tell me ive spoken total gibberish which is very embaressing but you laugh it off, also putting things in wrong place like the peas in there tins of course went in the fridge and the milk well yes you can guess went in the cupboard stupid stupid things going out and getting to the door and forgetting what i was doing forgetting what ive said or was going to say and heven help anyone who interupts me when talking as that would be it no chance of me ever remembering what ive said or been going to say .

    feel very old but no thats daft but my independance has been taken away from me lost my job and seriously struggling to get any benefits

    I was diagnosed with complex partial seizures over 10 years ago. My memory has progressively got worse since then to the extent that I have to use a diary as a bible and print out my work tasks for the next day the night before! I have to look on the bright side-my work colleagues perceive this as efficiency and I can watch the same TV programme again as if it's the first time!

    Wow! I have just found this website and can't believe there are other people who are labelled as 'ditzy' as me! I too can watch films over and over as well as read books. I'll sometimes get a dejavu feeling but i can never remember the end! I also buy diaries and forget I have them...I can't remember stories which are told to me and I could never tell a joke!! I do feel sad that I can't remember much about my childhood, school or Uni days but hey-ho, I know they were happy. I am always amazed at how my friend's recall points of detail and can recount conversations word for word...they often start conversations with "i think i've told you this before.." but they know i won't remember! It's easier with new friends, i tell them how it is and why and they accept - i swear my family just think im lazy and don't listen. I have finally persuaded my partner to stop tidying up after me, that way i can sometimes retrace my steps but it's painful! I often find los of repetition in my mind, like learning something by rote and particularly if i think of something just before i fall asleep all helps me to remember something important, like to pay a cheque in or post a letter...I hope this might help you too.

    I'm glad your memory came back after your huge seizure - that must have been scary? But I bet you can't remember?! ;o) Hope you keep well now -x-

    I find the key to overcoming this (particularly in order to keep my job), is to be INCREDIBLY well organised i.e. better organised than anyone else I know.

    Keeping a “to do” list is not enough. If you search on the web for “Get things done” or “GTD”, you will find free information on a technique for managing your time/tasks effectively, so that you don’t forget anything. More importantly, it shows how to live without the worry of thinking that you’ve forgotten something important (without being able to remember exactly what it is!). Some of the websites may try to sell you special software etc, but the technique was designed by David Allen to work with pen and paper, so there’s no need to buy anything. However, if this if interested, you will get the most benefit from reading David Allen's book (see if your library will get for you).

    p.s. I have no ties to David Allen, GTD etc: I’m just another epileptic with a bad memory.

    I was diagnosed with epilepsy in 2004, my seizures are now controlled but I have terrible memory problems & as I have now started a nursing degree I am worried about remembering the information I need esspecially for exam, I have been granted extra time & will be in a seperate room to he others but I think I will have to visit the gp to see if any addition help can be offered to improve my memory.

    Providing training and proficiency tests are covered by the DDA as are things like interviews. I went to one interview and the interviewers asked how they could help (reasonable adjustments) and I said one of my problems is responding quickly to questions. They offered to see me the interview questions 10 minutes beforehand. They said the questions aren't important it's the answers they were after. I also opened my CV at the interview so I could remember lost of experience/examples - quite a lot after 30 years!
    Rather than your GP see specialists. At a college, or at work, contact the Occupational Health Physician/Nurse (mine were excellent) and let them know your difficulties and they can design and negotiate adjustments with your tutors. The tutors will have to give reasons as to why they won't introduce reasonable adjustments recommended by the specialists. The specialists will have access to loads of colleagues and experience. You only want a level playing field not unreasonable advantage.
    Perhaps lateral thinking might be helpful. Perhaps the tutors and Occ Health might suggest various branches of nursing where your difficulties are not problems or even other medical areas where memory is not an issue eg where decisions are guided via a computer programme.
    There are professionals out there to help you - keep them in work!
    Good luck Helen.

    When as was about 11 or 12 years old I was aware of a difficulty in recalling things. It first became apparent to me when I left my classroom and I thought to myself if anyone asked me what happened in that lesson I had no idea. It was a complete blank to me. I was a diligent pupil, I understood most things, but I started to realise that I had a memory problem.

    On speaking to my mother and saying I find I cannot remember things, her answer to me was ' oh everyone forgets things '. No more was ever mentioned and I spent the next 4/5 years aware that I would not pass exams as my recall was so poor.

    This left me with great self esteem problems, as I felt inferior to others in an academic environment. This memory difficulty has effected my life considerably and I never knew why, until I was about 32. One day I was driving my car and visiting an old boarding school with my children, when I had a black out.

    It was diagnosed after this event that I had temporal lobe epilepsy, and this came as a major relief to me to understand why I have these difficulties all my life. I was given some medication, but found this disorientated me and did not help in my memory recall, so I stop taking them. I have since progressed through life having to survive essentially without the power of recall of events from the past. I can only remember vague isolated things from previous years.

    I do have my ' funny turns' which I am told by my wife, that I shake my head, I ask where am I, do things automatically, but I do not completely black out. This last for only a few seconds, before I return back to normality.

    I am now 61, and my past life experiences are so hard to recall, I am often told I have done this or been there, but I cannot remember. There are worse things to suffer from then having a bad memory, but it is such a handicap in a academic and working environment. If you reduce the memory efficiently of a politician's or an academics brain by 70% they would not be able to perform their job.

    I do feel that life does sometimes compensate, as there are many things about myself I am happy with. It is possible, that what is not functioning correctly in one part of the brain, is compensated by greater abilities in another part.

    To conclude it is not much fun having a poor memory, I think what I had at school all those years ago would now be termed a learning disability. So strides have been made, and hopefully there is now a recognision of this problem within the school environment.

    I was diagnosed in 2003 with generalised tonic clonic and myoclonic seizures. I am 29. I have just completed a HND in tourism management at college and began a 3rd year at Uni to convert it into a degree. I have had to suspend my studies as I have exams and am not sure I could even pass because of them This has made me very stressed and ill...increasing my myoclonic seizures.

    I would recommend a dictaphone in classes and seek student disability as this allows you a free study mentor, laptop, printer, internet, cartridges, printing and extra exam time.

    It is not too late to apply through finance direct or your local LEA. Get a letter from your doctor explaining the difficulties having epilepsi and memory loss affects your atudies a great deal. Prepare your work every week and don't get behind...put picture images with what you have learned that week. I.E understanding patient confidentiality...think of a priest in a confession box!! Or something like that.

    Hope this helps.

    Julie

    It is heartening, in an odd sort of way, to find that other people have the same fragile memory retention as me. I have come to realize in more recent years that my memory was not so good and wondered how I had managed to qualify as a nurse and as a teacher in my younger years. The feelings of inadequacy have been compounded by situations at work where management say I have basically failed to meet required standards, whereas 2-3 years ago management were not unhappy with my work. I have recently left the establishment I worked for, 9 years and plan teach through agencies. Reading the entries on this site I think may be I have suffered the consequences of my fragile memory. The management made me feel inadequate, a real dunce, bullied, a failure etc. With the time I have to myself before taking up work in the New Year I plan to come up with strategies to assist in organizing life and to heal my inner self of the hurt handed to me by the management.
    I am a 'maturing disgracefully' 50 year old, epileptic from the age 21.

    Hi all - I've had full epilepsy since the age of 18 in the first year of university in 1993. A scan showed a mark on the front right of my brain as seen from above. I was lucky in that all but two of my seizures since then have been in my sleep and, touch wood, they are now controlled by epilim chrono. Memory loss has been a specific problem for me since that time. Prior to 1993 I have memories that I can recall with photographic, almost video, clarity - even as far back as meeting my best friend back when we were 5 in primary school; events, things said, places were people sat and what occured in school, home, out with friends. Post 1993 my memory, as the seizures continued, has worsened.

    I am now at a point where my long term memory is relatively intact, but my short term memory, used for learning and the part for forming mentally what you are going to do next is in a huge state of disarray. Even now I was about to edit this first paragraph with some new information but what it was has gone. If I don't say or write it down immediately, the storage of the information will be lost. Often I find myself starting a sentance, talking and then asking my audience What was I talking about, as I had simply lost the thread in my mind. The other day I forgot the name of a colleague whom I had known for 3 months. I use association of what they do or remind me of to help with the names.

    It has made learning new things very hard. I am an IT consultant and the words "move with the times" are very apt - new technologies, programs, programming languages need to be learnt all the time; upstairs I have a huge pile of computer manuals, each costing me between £12 and £30 that I simply cannot read. I take it in, try to remember it and forget it. This leads at work to people thinking I am too slow or cannot do the job simply because I have to keep going back over my code time and time again even to remember the simplest of things that my CV says I have been doing for 10 years. I have lost two jobs because of this. But what do you do? Shout foul, or look for another job?

    I never considered that my epilepsy was the possible cause of such a "learning disability" and that it was just down to maybe dissinterest in the subject or maybe a change in career was due - but I look through all of my life, from 1993, and see the same pattern of information going in and not being learnt; I don't know what the future holds, but the depression of not being able escape "mentally" from 1993 is like a lead balloon.

    This information has been very useful to me. I was diagnosed with epilepsy three years ago at the age of 36, and for a while before my diagnosis I was suffering memory loss, spacial & visual problems, and for a short while I had a kind of a stammer. It was all very embarrassing and frustrating to me because none of those things had ever happened to me before. Not to mention a bit frightening too because I didn't know what was happening. People would say (and they still do now!) "Remember when we went to such-and-such a place?" and I have absolutely no recollection of it, and they look at me as if I'm mad. It's a lot better than it was now that my medication is controlled and I know what's causing these problems. It's just making other people aware of it which can be a problem.