Hi, I’m Sean I’m 18, dropped out of school after year 10 and currently don’t do anything.
What I’ve just said and what I’m going to say normally causes people to say I’m just looking for attention and I’m lazy, playing the victim etc.
I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety since puberty really I can’t handle any kind of pressure, had insomnia for as long as I can remember, in the last 2-3 years of my life I got diagnosed with the Depression, anxiety and insomnia as well as Chronic fatigue syndrome and juvenile myoclonic epilepsy, but I’ve never been suicidal which I think almost makes people not care too much because I’m not going to kill myself, I don’t really cry often and I prefer not to tell or show much to anyone, but I care too much about what people think of me.
I just want to be able to get up in the morning and go to work, go to the dentist, get my hair cut, go to the pub with some friends, make some friends, get my own apartment, sort myself out. People will think well why don’t you just do it, but I say that to myself multiple times every single day. I just can’t do it, and I know people are worse off than me but I only know my situation and that situation I just can’t do it 😞
I don’t know if what O have, what I’ve been diagnosed with affects the fact I don’t do things, I hate myself every day for not being able to provide for my amazing mother who does basically everything for me, my friends and my self but at the same time I don’t regret leaving school, I don’t regret being unemployed at home with my parents.
I get told off for not taking my tablets but to be honest it’s just, I’m embarrassed to even have epilepsy, it gets joked about regularly in social media and I just want to deny the fact I have it 😞