You have so many plans for the future and when they gradually start to fall apart you wonder if you can carry on.
I had my first seizure when I was 27. I'd started temping as an administrator and it happened at my desk. I've no recollection other than a paramedic saying my name and having excruciating pain where I'd bitten my tongue. I never went back to the office again, I was too embarrassed. I only went back to pick up my car, no one had told me I shouldn't drive. I actually carried on driving until I went to the Doctors a week later and the GP told me I should stop. This felt like the end of the world, but it was only the start.
A month later I began training for my dream career to become a police officer, but whilst on a placement I had another seizure, this time I fell backwards onto a stone floor and hit my head, I was taken to hospital as it needed stitches. Two seizures and a sleep deprived EEG showing the signs meant I was now diagnosed with epilepsy.
I was medically discharged from the police. I was at the lowest I could possibly be, the end of my career and no more driving until a year seizure free, I became depressed. Thankfully I had a supportive family and an amazing boyfriend who got me through the year.
I was eventually put on medication and for 7 years I was seizure free, it felt amazing! But then it happened again following a viral infection. It's happened once more since then when I was over tired. It's always at the back of your mind, if I have anything that feels like a aura or I'm feeling too tired I panic, but life has to go on.
For everything that has set me back eventually there's a positive. I got married to the boyfriend, have a daughter, started a career as a Broadcast Journalist and even jumped out of a plane (with a parachute). We don't always end up on the path we want, but maybe the ones we find on our journeys will be even better.
Keep moving forward.