I never knew the ‘bad feelings’ or the ‘daydreams’ I had from a child was epilepsy until I was diagnosed in 2020. I was diagnosed with Frontal Lobe Epilepsy. I was under investigation from late 2019 during my training as a Veterinary Nurse. I booked an appointment with my local GP when these episodes started to change. They became more frequent and I began to have a range of different seizures.
My life started to change drastically it was a huge impact on my mental health. I lost my license and my independence. I became more anxious with completing every day tasks and even more scared with how my career would be affected. The neurologist started with diagnostic tests and I began trialing medications. Over the past year my medications have been altered to help with the episodes.
I continued with my training as it was my one goal in life which I managed to achieve in 2021. I was so frightened on how my epilepsy would affect my work. The constant feeling of worrying if I was to have a seizure that day. The post ictal stages of fatigue. The fear after each seizure. I would always ask myself ‘why me?’.
Having a new diagnosis like epilepsy brings a huge wave of emotions. The pressure of continuing with daily tasks and your own health. Often you feel so strong and powerful that you are managing your diagnosis. Other times you feel weak and emotionally unstable.
I have learnt to appreciate my epilepsy. Yes it does still have an impact on my mental health. Often my physical health. However it gave me even more motivation to work harder to achieve my career of being a Veterinary Nurse.
I couldn't be more grateful for my amazing team. They have been so supportive during my diagnosis. They ensure I have regular breaks and they have learnt how to monitor my pre-ictal stages. Each member is able to assist me during my episodes and are aware of what steps to carry out. They have helped me achieve my dream and I couldn’t of done this without them. I think of the times when I worried whether I could be a Veterinary Nurse with epilepsy but now I am able to say I can.