I had my first seizure on 29th October 2013 when I was 18 years old. When they said they found irregularities in my brain waves from my EEG and that I had Epilepsy my heart sank and I felt very angry and upset. Part of the reason for this was I was severely tested for epilepsy twice, on 2 separate occasions as a child and they never found anything.
When I first got diagnosed my thoughts were why has this happened to me? what am I going to do? Am I going to lose my job? I went a bit mad I went out about 4, 5 times a week and drank a lot because I was so upset and angry and very very afraid and I felt what was the point. I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone because no one would understand, I felt very very alone. Sometimes I still get those feelings but not nearly as much as I did.
Now I feel a lot better I've come to terms with it more now and the people at my job have been amazing and supportive and I wouldn't of been able to get through this if wasn't for the amazing support and understanding of my house mates, other friends and family. I feel as though I can get through this and even though I still find it hard to approach people and open up about it, I feel that I can have a life and there is some sort of light at the end of the tunnel.